Cut love out

As per usual, I made plans today that never fell through. I'm not that concerned. I've had a very low-key social life in the first place. I'm also the girl of sorts that somewhat prefers to stay home, eat junk food, and watch TV on the couch. However, watching shows were girls get a good man, fall in love, and etc despite shortcomings makes me, well, grouchy.

You could say I'm bitter, because I wish I could get a guy to fall in love with me. Maybe it's the conflict with the opposite gender from my childhood that makes me think this way, but how I wish.

Recently, I've developed a bit of a crush on someone. He's cute, tall, dark-ish. He even has loose curly locks, something I really dig. We get along quite well, and we laugh a lot. Similar perverted sense of humor. Yes, I'm perverse. We also have our differences, like him being a weird healthy eater, and me being a sweet tooth gal who just LOVES food (Planning to go to Lindt tomorrow to buy a whole lot of chocolate). You think that a girl like me, fierce, outgoing (despite enjoying staying home), and oh so bold, wouldn't hesitate to ask him on a date. Yet, I can't.

The problem is two other friends of mine seem to have a crush on him. One is my best friend whom I absolutely love to bits, and has had many love problems of her own. She also keeps me in the dark about a lot of her problems, so I'm happy she told me this. The other is a somewhat innocent and naive girl that is quite odd, and always seems to fall into one-sided loves. I'd feel selfish, and guilty of betrayal to ask him out.

Would it be worth it?

On a different note, I could die for these Christian Louboutin mesh shoes.





Pair it with this cardigan, hand knit sock, cute day dress, my favourite vintage leather bomber motorcycle jacket, and wooohoo. Extremely chic.

Good night, loves.